You Are Not a Disorder, You Are a Person

original art by Christina King

original art by Christina King

You are not a disorder, you are a person.

We are body, soul and spirit.  We must bring healing to our own “Trinitarian” being (in the sense of being body, soul and spirit).   Traditional therapy either wants to give pharmaceuticals or just discuss and manage symptoms of anxiety, thoughts or behavioral issues or perhaps to do all three but not to actually bring healing and restoration for the “whole” person.

Christ says He makes all things new. He promises us healing. Was He lying? Are we expecting too much? Are we giving the cross or God too much power?  I say no.  I say we do not expect enough. I believe Christ really has the power to work miracles.  In fact, He worked miracles of healing and told the apostles that they would do all of the things He did and more! We are called to bring healing and deliverance to those in misery, to be a sign of His power.  Christ desires to restore us.  Our healing is to be a visible sign to the world that our God is an awesome God and that He Reigns in Heaven and on earth.  He makes us whole.  I believe he wants to heal our emotions and our memories, not just our bodies.

“Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things pass away; behold, he is made new.” 2 Cor 5:17

We are not disorders.  I believe many people who have been sexually abused or experienced traumatic childhoods like I did are actually dealing with identity wounds that distort their ability to know themselves and to know God. Being abused has a very real and powerful effect on shaping our identity.  To merely dismiss that and label someone as being “disordered” is, in my opinion, causing more damage and in a sense, keeps their pain and cries for help unheard.

I realize we can categorize and diagnose and give our psychological disorders a name but what good is it to give it a name if you do not understand it enough to help bring healing?

identity wounds Many of our disorders come from identity wounds. How do we get identity wounds? We get them when our true identity is distorted by shame. It may sound contradictory to say there is such a thing as “good shame” but in fact there is good shame and bad shame.

Good shame is felt when we are separating ourselves from God as well as others in a selfish way.  It “prickles” our conscience and in this way it helps us to address a something we are doing that we know is wrong so that we can self-correct.  This “prickling” of conscience is from our awareness that we have just separated ourselves from what is good and true.  This not only helps us shape our morality but it also protects our self-respect.  When we feel “good shame” we become aware that we have lost our innocence, motivates us to correct ourselves and turns us back to what we know is good.

Bad shame is more of an emotional torment and sickness to our very soul.  It is what begins to poison and divide us from within our whole self. All of us have shortcomings and when they are used to ridicule us or to inflict “bad shame”, we tend to believe the lie that we are bad or unworthy and this new “truth” sears into our heart, mind and soul.  We believe the lie that we are inferior, unworthy, undeserving and bad to the bone.  Bad shame causes us to despair separating us from our only cure to what ails us, which is God’s mercy.

The inflicting of this debilitating shame comes from those closest to us and causes the deepest of wounds. When we are children, our beliefs are being shaped, especially our beliefs about who we are as persons. If the message we get is that we are bad or unlovable, it can become our identity.  Identity wounds distort our ability to love ourselves, to love others and to love or know God.

the worse thing we can do to a person with identity wounds is to give them an identity as being “disordered”.

borderline Personality Disorder

 

Lets think about the word “disorders” through the lens of Theology of the Body.  For something to be disordered it has to have been rightly ordered but then gotten twisted up.  When the John Paul II wrote about Original Man he reminds us that in Genesis that Adam was naked without shame.  He had no desire or intention to use Eve as an object of pleasure for his own selfish needs or wants.  They were both subjects of God and saw one another as persons.  When sin entered the garden they were no longer seeing one another as subjects but as objects.  They covered their “private parts” of their bodies in shame.

 

What was good and right became disordered due to sin.  This is the reality of the world we live in.  If this is true then we see we are all disordered in one way or another.  If we are all disordered in some way how helpful is it to give a person made in the image and likeness of God a label of being disordered as if this is their identity or who they are as a person? I am guessing it could be potentially destructive and could create further woundedness.  Let’s call disorders what they truly are, which is distortions of truth from which we base our lives and relationships upon.

We are complex human beings.  The teachings of Theology of the Body helps us to get a bigger picture as to who we are as persons and how we are made to love and be loved as self-gift whereas psychology bases “truth” in disorders or distortions.

Our experiences in and through our bodies shape our understandings and beliefs and those beliefs can bind us up.  We act on our beliefs and if those beliefs are disordered it goes to follow that so too may our actions be disordered. For example when I experienced the trauma of being sexually abused it created a deep wound that penetrated my identity, which distorted my whole “person”. Psychology may have helped me to understand the distortions and behaviors but Theology of The Body helped me to understand my wounds and their effect on my identity. It was this distorted identity that shaped my beliefs and those beliefs caused me to make the choices in my life that I did.

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Looking at someone’s whole person, body, mind, emotions, memories, spirit etc is what needs to happen if we want a person to reclaim their greatness.  Seeing the whole person as opposed to a disorder is what gives true hope for healing.  Anything else merely treats a part of a person.  Christ comes to make all things new, not part of things new.

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Why Do I feel scared, ashamed, hopeless, rejected, angry or powerless?

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Want to know why you feel so screwed up? Well, it is probably  from wounds created by sin that has you believing a lie in which you have then made vows to do or not do this or that  ever again in an attempts to get control over your pain or fear or distrust or feelings of powerlessness.  How do you fix it? Read on.

(This is a long piece and meant only for those who desire to understand what their root wounds are that are causing such great suffering in their lives due to a life of neglect, trauma or abuse). 

WOUNDS CHART

sin separates

From the very beginning of the Bible sin is defined as separation from God. It is also spoken of as a transgression, which means to violate the law.  Since the law is meant to protect us and the world we live in, we see that sin is not only a violation of God but a violation of us and of all creation.  When we sin we separate ourselves from God, transgress against his will and against one another and against all of creation.  This is the condition we live in due to original sin.

The word sin can also be understood as missing the mark.  Greek archers used the word sin when an archer would aim for a target but miss the mark, they would fall short of their target.  Many of us aim to please God yet we all fall short of the glory of God.

So with these biblical definitions I think we can agree that we are all sinners.  All of us live in that place of struggle in which we miss the mark, transgress upon the will of God and in doing so violate one another and ourselves

So all of us are sinners and our sin has it’s effects by creating wounds.  Sin always wounds.  Our sin wounds us every time.  But we are also wounded by the sins of those around us. So it seems very clear that we have no possibility of living in this world without being wounded.

Sin is like cancer in that if it’s ignored it will grow in our bodies.  As Christians we are called to be the body of Christ.  We are to make Christ visible in and through our lives. We are to be living signs, our families an icon of the Trinitarian love of God revealing truth, life and love to the world.  When we sin, the effects of our sin spreads in three directions thus marring our ability to reveal Christ to the world.

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Sin spreads socially, to all those around us.

When we sin, we diminish Christ’s glory, not that Christ’s glory can be diminished but certainly our ability to be an icon that reveals His Glory can be diminished.  How can someone see Christ in us when our sin is the first thing someone sees when they look at us.

Scripture tells us in Genesis, Exodus and Deuteronomy that sin also has an effect for generations. Some scriptures say ten generations.  Many of us are not only dealing with our own sinfulness but with sin that has had it’s effects in our families down through the generations. For people who have been abused, simple affection can be difficult to give to their children.  Those children then have difficulty with affection and so you see that the same affects of the sin from abuse has its affects down the generations.

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When I began my journey in inner healing and realized my own sinfulness as a result of my wounds I discovered that the same wounds that had been passed down through the generations to me did not stop there.  I realized I was in fact responsible for bringing the same kind of pain to the people in my family.  This led me to become overwhelmed with grief.

How can we prevent hurting our own children? The answer is we can’t.

The only thing we can do is to continue to clean up our hearts. The cleaner our hearts become the better we can love those around us.  It is like our heart is a vase meant for holding flowers but with sin and wounds our “vase” is cracked and holds sludge instead of water.  When we clean out the sludge and allow Christ to heal us, we can retain His grace to love others the way He loves and the water is not tainted with the sludge.

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The reason why we are struggling in this world is not because we are somehow strange or because we are not faithful or pious enough, it is because we live in a world that has been divided because of sin. Being faithful and growing in holiness can help us in our struggles but unless we address our wounds we may find ourselves carrying a larger struggle than God desires for us to carry by ourselves.

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“There are many kinds of wounds but what they all have in common is that they affect us in such as ways as to give us a taste of hell.” Says  Dr. Bob Schuchts,  founder of the John Paul II healing center and creator of healing retreats in Tallahassee Florida.  These retreats are what I believe have saved my marriage and saved my own children from growing up even worse off than perhaps I was.  While taking his course “Sexual Healing and Redemption” at the Theology of the Body Institute, he spoke of 6 common wounds that many of us carry.  He bases that number off of the Theophostic Healing research done by Ed Smith’s work who lays out 7 common wounds.  Dr. Bob has condensed the list to 6.   He lists them as follows:

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1) Abandonment Wounds.  “I am all alone and I will always be alone”.

2) Fear or terror wounds.  “I can’t trust anybody.”

3) Shame.  “I’m unworthy, I’m unlovable.”

4) Powerlessness.  “I have no ability to do anything.  I can’t change anything.”

5) Rejection.  “I’m unacceptable, I’m disgusting, I’m repulsive.”

6) Hopelessness.  “I can’t change anything.”

7) Identity Wounds.  “I am garbage, I am nothing, I do not matter”.

When events in our lives cause us suffering, the devil, the enemy of our soul, comes to us in that moment and proposes a lie to us much like a groom would propose marriage to us.  If we believe the lie he proposes, we are then opening ourselves to him.  This is a foothold.  St. Paul tells us how sin can becomes a foothold using anger as an example.

“Do not be angry and sin in your anger and give the devil a foothold”.

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We are either in relationship with God or relationship with the devil.  We are either walking in truth or walking in a lie.  When Eve was in the garden of Eden, the devil came and proposed his lie to her that God could not be trusted, that he was keeping something back from her by not allowing her to eat from the tree of knowledge.  He was proposing that God did not love her.  When Eve ate the apple, she was accepting the proposal of the devil, she accepted his lie and just like any marriage there was fruit that came from her accepting the proposal.  The fruit was death.  When we accept the lies that the devil proposes to us we too our severing our union with God and are uniting ourselves to the evil one.  With our free will, we are chosing to be in relationship with the liar and this foothold we have given him, will grow like a cancer if we ignore it.  Like cancer spreads in our bodies, so too does the affects of the lies we consent to believe in.  These footholds turn into strongholds.

“A stronghold is any pattern of behavior in your life that you know is against the will of God but continues to persist even when you try to change it.” ( Dr Bob Schuchts Anatomy of a wound audio http://www.OnlyPeople.net).

This pattern is a result of the barriers we have built around our heart, brick by brick, lie by lie and vow by vow in an attempt to protect ourselves from being hurt or suffering in some way.  The problem with putting up walls around our hearts is that we keep out the good along with the bad.  We become like a prisoner within a castle and the stronghold keeps us there.  

Counseling can bring us temporary relief, can teach us coping skills and can give us a means by which to deal with the distress symptoms that result from us believing the lies but they cannot change the stronghold or bring it down.  Medication can offer us some relief as well, perhaps helping us manage our anxiety that is related to the stronghold but this is not a chemical imbalance we are talking of.  A stronghold is an action of our free will and unless we take it down with our own free will it will not be moved by medication.  Praying is helpful and is definitely a step in the right direction as God is the one that can help to expose the lies so we know where to start but unless we are using the weapons spoken of by St. Paul then we are only managing the our pain rather than finding true freedom.

 

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Dr Bob Schucht’s goes on to say that “Every thought and imagination that exalts itself against the knowledge of God results in a stronghold.” (Anatomy of a wound audio).   So in the name of Jesus Christ, through the power of God we can break strongholds.  Without the power of God we are just using our will to do something or not do something.  If we try to overcome stronghold by own own sheer will we will end up frustrated or giving up all together.

 

 

7 deadly sins

They are pride, envy, gluttony, lust, anger, greed and sloth. Dr. Bob Schucht’s reminds us that “It is interesting to note that they are dispositions or attitudes of our hearts before they are sins.   These are attitudes of our hearts that orientate us towards sin.   Each one of them has an idolatry of something that exalts itself above God.” (The Anatomy of a wound audio on onlypeople.net).

Anger is an idolatry of control.

Pride is an idolatry of self.

Greed is an idolatry of things.

Lust is an idolatry relationship.

Gluttony is an idolatry of substance to comfort.

Sloth is an idolatry of comfort to avoid pain.

Envy is an idolatry of the status position or privileges of other people.

 

To explain this further let me clarify the relationship of sin, idol, wound, lies and vows.  When the enemy proposes a lie, and if we accept his proposal,  we then turn away from God.  When we turn away from God, we then are turning towards something else.  This “something else” becomes our idol.  If we are feeling powerless, the enemy may propose the lie that “we must be in control or we will be hurt”.  We then accept his proposal and profess to him our vows to unite ourselves to his lie.  Our vow may be “I will make sure I always remain in control”.  My idol is now control and not God.  When I am feeling powerless I no longer turn to God and believing that he will protect me and his hand is guiding my life for my well-being.  Instead, my heart has closed itself to God, instead my new idol of control is what I live by to protect myself from feeling powerless.  I have exalted control above God.  When I cannot control a situation and begin to feel as if I am losing control the result is my anger. I sin out of my anger in many ways and they are the distress symptoms.  You will see my outbursts, my nit-picking, my perfectionism, my passive-aggressive means of manipulating others you will see me rage.

For every wound there is an idol and for every idol we worship we manifest sinful actions.  Every sin has an effect and those effects are usually very visible to the people around us.  (I have made a chart and attached it above to give an understanding ow how they all go together.  I have used the information that I learned at several healing retreats taught by Dr. Bob Schuchts however, I could not find a chart that put together the connection of all of the components to make it easier for people to discover what their wounds are so I created my own.

 

 

We begin to make God’s out of all of those things because we think they will give us some satisfaction yet they are all characterizations of the devil so if we begin to engage in the lies that he tells us, we allow him the very foothold upon which he can ensnare us.

So how are we going to break free from the strongholds?  We must be willing to suffer.  When we are willing to suffer the original thing we were running away from and turn back to God and ask him to help us, then and only then do we acquire the actual graces to practice the virtues necessary in overcoming a particular sin in our life.  If we have experienced abuse, trauma or neglect as children then the powerlessness we experienced in those moments may have resulted in our attempts to control everything and everyone.  Most likely it also resulted in distrust, fear and un-forgiveness.   When we forgive people who have hurt us we then begin to embody the merciful heart of Jesus Christ.  Anger cannot remain where one has softened their hearts and become forgiving and merciful.  Anger cannot abide where a heart has turned to God and begins to relinquish it’s power in exchange for his grace and his will in their life.  

The only thing that overcomes pride is humility.  Humbly acknowledging your pride before God and asking Him to take it away.  If you think you can work on your pride then you are being prideful.  The sin of being prideful or self-justifying comes from identity wounds.  When we grow up in homes where we might not have been affirmed and loved as unique and unrepeatable person we begin to self-justify.  If the only thing we were affirmed for was being attractive, this may become our new idol.  This is vanity which is a form of pride.  When we were only affirmed for being smart we make our intellect or academics our idol.  The only way to overcome these things is to acknowledge that these are gifts from God meant to bring souls to Christ.

The only thing that overcomes our greed is generosity because greed is the control over our possession because of insecurity.  Many people who hoard money or objects (there are even shows on television showing the lives of hoarders) desire to keep as much “things” around them and with them because they have entered into a relationship with objects that are safe and cannot “hurt” them.  Greed is a “distress” symptom of a wound.  We sin in our greed in attempt to stop feeling insecure or afraid about our well-being. We do not trust that God will care for us.The irony is that they are hurting because of the isolation their greed may cause.  This is like a cycle that repeats itself.  The only thing that can overcome greed is trusting in the generosity of God and then becoming generous yourself.  Generosity is saying and believing that you trust in the providence of God. So if you think your issue is greed you are wrong, it is a fear wound and a trust issue.

The only thing that overcomes lust is not “getting yourself under control” and saying  to yourself “I just won’t look at the person or that pornography.” Our issue is a rejection wound.  Out of that place of feeling disgusting or that no one can love you a false idol is made out of disordered relationships of intimacy where the other can not “in-to-me-see”.  Intimacy is about seeing deeply into an other and allowing oneself to be deeply seen.  When we come to see the beauty and purpose of the human person made visible in and through our bodies we begin to heal.  Theology of the Body is the antidote and chastity is lived out because once we understand our sexuality we desire to “speak” a language of love in and with our bodies.  It is then that we can come before God and beg him for purity of our eyes and our hearts and of our bodies.  Chastity is seeing the awesome creation of our sexuality “male and female” He created us.

The only thing that overcomes gluttony is abstinence and fasting.   This can come from shame or hopelessness wounds and so we begin to consume a substance that comforts us rather than go to God and ask Him to fill the hole inside our hearts.  We begin to forget the spiritual life and rely only upon the pleasures of the body.  It is disordering our very personhood.  This often times leads to sloth.

The only thing that overcomes sloth is diligence.  This can come from feeling powerless.  We become bound up in sloth when we believe the lie that we are powerless in some area of our life or in life in general and so we avoid the pain of trying to effect change by being slothful.  It is in being diligent and willing to do the things that God is asking us to do especially when it is difficult that helps us to get free from Sloth. This is a common attack as it has to do with keeping the body of Christ from realizing we are in a spiritual battle.  If we feel powerless and so then give up and become slothful the enemy can make more ground. I would say fortitude and diligence as well as courage and perseverance are important in overcoming sloth.

The only thing that overcomes envy is kindness.  The wounds here can be from identity wounds.  When you grow up feeling that you do not matter and that you are garbage, it is easy to begin hating your neighbor whose life may seem so much better.  Envy is not just desiring your neighbors goods or status it is also believing that they have gotten something that you deserved to have.  Is the reality that you deserve to be seen as good and worthy? Yes, but when one suffers from identity wounds then the lie is that you don’t matter and so envy builds up in our hearts turning it even more cold and hard against others.  When we can be kind to others, be truly concerned for others this hardness softens. When you begin to see that each of us are called into being by our creator, each of us are unique and unrepeatable persons, then we see that our own worth and dignity is God given and are no longer angry about the good fortune of others.

Sometimes we can’t truly choose to become free from something so we may begin by choosing to become free in something else.  We may chose to abstain in a smaller area which will then give us the strength to deal with a more powerful stronghold later.  This helps us overcome the hopelessness of feeling that nothing will ever change.

These are just some of the examples of how sin and wounds and lies work together and how once discovered and the virtues sought can enable us to brings some real healing into our lives.  None of us are any position to judge one another yet I am sure all of us can identify with one or more of these sins.  All of us struggle with these sins and virtue is the way in which we will get free.

Once your identity a sin in your life that you cannot seem to get free from you must then begin to identify the lies that you believe.   You must then renounce those lies and ask Jesus to forgive you for making a false idol in an attempt to deal with your pain alone rather than to open your heart to God.  This is where healing comes in.   If I have truth to undo the lie, if I believe the scripture that tells me that I should not worry about what I eat and what I wear because I trust in God’s providence then all of a sudden I can have security, real security because the stronghold lie begins to crumble.  In asking forgiveness for making a false idol and renouncing the lie in Jesus’ name the enemies power is broken.  Now the drawbridge has been lowered so that the Holy Spirit, the Paraclete can come in and be the divine physician.

So how do we begin? First you must ask the Holy Spirit to come and help you.  God knows what you are ready to deal with and where you must first get free in order to have the strength and courage to press into the other wounds.  If you go into areas you are not ready to deal with it will feel as if the enemy is rubbing salt in your wounds and you may be to afraid or feel to incapable of handling the pain associated with it.

I started with a distress symptom, an area of my life I felt was creating a pattern of sinful behavior that I just could not seem to get free of.  I then asked the Holy Spirit to show me what He wanted me to know about it.  For me, he showed me a memory.  I then asked the Holy Spirit to reveal the lie in my heart that I believed.  I then asked Him to reveal the judgment I had made about God and about the other person.  I then asked God’s forgiveness for the believing the lies, making the judgments and for turning to a false idol instead of to Him.  I then asked God to help me forgive the person for what they did.  As for the lies, I renounced them in the name of Jesus Christ.  It was as if I broke off my union with the enemy  had re-united myself to my true Bridegroom, Jesus Christ.  The effects were immediate.  The peace was beyond anything counseling or anxiety meds or alcohol or food had ever done for me.

When I contemplated the lie again, I laughed out loud because it sounded, AND FELT, so ridiculous.  It no longer had any hold over me.  Who would have thought that freedom would and could be so instantaneous.  This is because it is by the power of God.  So why did this work when nothing else seemed to? Because God does not and will not violate our free will.  He can supernaturally heal us but before that we must first surrender our will to God and invite him in.  It is, to use the castle analogy,  as if we must lower the drawbridge to give him access.

St. Peter says “Anyone who is willing to suffer in the flesh is done with sin” 1 peter

Jesus is the only person who experienced all of the same wounds we have and yet did not sin out of his wounds.  He was abandoned “My God, my God why have you forsaken me”.  All his friends left him.  He was abandoned, yet did not sin.

“He was rejected and despised among men” IS 53, but he did not give into the rejection, he continued to love in the face of that rejection.

He was complete helplessness on the cross, but he chose to surrender his will to the father.

He tasted the greatest despair on him from our sins in the garden and on the cross but he never gave into despair or sloth.

He experienced every single wound in the mystery of creation and chose to be obedient.  He took on every wound for us and the sins and penalties of the wounds and the sins.  He did this for us.  He also identified with us so that we can see that we can identify with him in our suffering and know his compassion for our pain.

Am I saying that healing our wounds is as simple as bringing our suffering to Him on the cross? Yes I am. It is not simple or easy to do but it is simple in choice.

Are you still afraid? Are you still feeling hopeless? Are you still not sure how to begin? Then start simply.  You can say “I can not overcome this Jesus, but you can”.  “I can not bear this Jesus, but you can.”

In scripture, it says we have a mighty savior that will wipe away every tear and comfort every infirmity and remove every sin for those who believe and trust in him.  Instead of despair we shall have the oil of gladness, instead of shame we shall have double honor, not just in heaven but here in our lives, progressively as grace perfects our nature.

Take some time to journal.  Take an area of your life, some place of distress in your life.  Pray and ask God to show you what the lie is that you believe in your heart.  Ask the Holy Spirit to show you what the root wound and the root sin is. Ask him to show you where it is rooted in term of memory and experience. For some it may be a recent event for others something farther back.

This part is important.  Allow yourself the chance to feel the pain of that.  Bring that to Jesus and ask Jesus to reveal the truth and bring his healing love there.

He who is willing to suffer in the flesh is done with sin!

God will meet us. It’s a matter of walking there so don’t be impatient with yourself.  It is a process and He is not going to give you something that is more than you can bear.

I want to give you hope that as you walk through this, to know that there is such joy on the other side of healing.  It is awesome and worth every bit of the pain you might go through as you look at events or people in your lives that wounded you with their sin.  Keep your eyes, your focus on Jesus.  He is the author and perfecter of our faith.  He will bring you to the joy that He promises.  That may be hard to believe, especially for those who might have been dealing with deep hopelessness wounds for a long time.  Let me encourage you to not give in to sloth, remain diligent, keep going forward even if it is very small steps, that is still progress and you will be greatly rewarded.

This information comes from Dr. Bob Schucht’s work on “Healing The Whole Person” and other great Inner Healing work he provides for those desiring real freedom.  You can find more information on how to attend his healing retreats by going to his website  The John Paul II Healing Center  .

Jesus is the answer, but what’s the question?

Have you ever noticed street preachers holding us signs that say “Jesus Is the Answer!” Perhaps, like me you wonder how effective that is. I have encountered many people in my travels and it seems to me that this sort of thing has the opposite effect from its intended purpose.

Many people have been hurt by “religious” people or perhaps “religious” beliefs that were in fact not religious at all. As a result they do not see an answer they see a subjective belief system filled with hate, judgment, condemnation and persecution. We are all told that “God is Love”. However, some how our society sees street preachers as preachers of hate and oppression.

It is as if we speak another language entirely. If we truly want to bring the mercy of Jesus Christ to our broken humanity then we need to know the question, not just the answer. We need to know how to speak the language of those we encounter. If I were in China I would speak Chinese. If I were in France I would speak French. If I am to evangelize in a world that worships status, fame, wealth, good looks or even being counter-cultural, then I need to know how to talk about these things in a way in which will identify what a person is seeking so that I can then speak a language that reveals that Jesus Christ is the answer.

We must first begin with; DESIRE. What is it that the person in front of desires? What is “their” question?

What do I mean by when I say we must know their question? What I mean is that we must get in touch with what people desire. What is it that they are hungry and longing for most in their lives? Usually people are afraid to come to Jesus because that means they must expose all of their brokeness as well as allow Him to break them open further. No one wants to be broken when they don’t have the graces to bear their inadequacies. Do you? I sure don’t.

So how do we begin? We must get in touch with the ache and longing inside of ourselves and learn to see it in others before we can ever effectively bring the Mercy and love of Jesus Christ to the world. Mercy is best understood when it is encountered rather than preached.

How Does Jesus Treat Sinners? With Mercy

How Does Jesus Treat Sinners? With Mercy

The basic human desire is to love and to be loved, to find meaning and truth in our lives. Why? Because God, Himself, put it there. It is what keeps them open and seeking the “answer” to this God given question.

When we tell others that God is infinite love and desires our union with Him for eternity, do they understand eternity as an endless succession of days or as a plunging into the infinite ocean of love in which we are simply overjoyed to be submerged?

We must learn the language that other people are speaking. We must listen to those we encounter and hear their ache, hear their longing and then we will know their question, without it we can not give them the answer.

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What I have noticed is that there is a debilitating communication problem between those who have found the answer and those who are seeking it. If we do not overcome this barrier then we will be sound like the parents on the Charlie Brown cartoon. We will sound like patronizing blurs of sound that makes no sense to anyone but ourselves.

When we begin to understand the desires stirring inside of every person we meet, then and only then can we begin to speak a language they can receive. What do they really want? Do they want purpose? Do they want friendship? Do they want food? Do they want someone to just listen to them?

How did Jesus treat people? How? He was harsh with the religious Pharisees, the ones that placed rules and laws over mercy but he was not harsh with sinners. He was quite the opposite. He was merciful and loving and he spoke in a language they could receive.

We need to stop thinking that there is only one way to evangelize. God speaks many languages and we must learn them. He wants us to go into the streets and bring Jesus to those who are lost and wandering in the desert.

He wants us to evangelize in the supermarket; he wants us to evangelize on the sidewalk, he wants us to evangelize everyday and everywhere we go and if necessary use words.

We can bring Jesus Christ to someone in a bar. I recently met a lesbian woman that came up to my daughter and me. I did not know she was a lesbian at first. She was so delightfully friendly and wonderful and as the conversation went on it became apparent that she was actually trying to pick me up. I asked her if she was married and she told me she was in a same sex relationship. I told her that while I affirm her desire to be loved as good, I believed that marriage is only between a man and a woman. I asked her if she ever ached or longed to hold life in her womb or suckle a child at her breast? I reminded her of what an honor and privilege it is to be a woman, that men, no matter how much they desired or fought for the “right” to have children, could never ever be pregnant with life inside them nor could their breasts ever produce the perfect milk from which to nourish their own child.

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God put the desire to be mother in all women. Some are called to physical motherhood and some to spiritual motherhood but you cannot be a woman and not desire on some level to bring life into the world in some capacity. I taped into that desire because that is God’s truth. No matter of argument or discussion could ever tap into the ache that God planted into her being but God’s truth could. I knew that by touching upon that ache, I could awaken or perhaps bring to life that small seed planted within in her and perhaps with a new awareness of God, He could sprout it forth and bring it to life.

We discussed God, faith and so much more. She was upset at first that I did not agree with same sex marriage and she even tried to sell me on her belief that we can “choose” whether we are a man or woman telling me that it is just a “state of mind”.

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This is when I began to talk to her about Theology of The Body. She agreed with me that the body and mind and spirit are one. She then tried to justify her choosing to be male or masculine as proof of how our minds determine our sexuality. When I reminded her that she said her body and mind where one and that her body was intrinsically female and it is a contradiction to say your mind can chose something that is opposite of your body when the two are supposed to be one, she became confused.

Remember, many people have lost the ability to critically thing through information separate from their emotions or feelings or beliefs on a subject. If you try to challenge their beliefs, they see only judgment or condemnation, not an invitation to rationally discuss the theological implications of sexuality. I told this woman that if we took cheek cells of hers and put it onto a slide any scientist would determine she is a woman because she does not carry an Y chromosome. She can fight for her right to be a man, she can cut off her breasts or take hormones to make her facial hair grow, but she cannot become a male because she is female.

She had been raised Catholic and was told she was going to hell (her words not mine) and was condemned by her mother and her siblings and her faith community. She was raised here in the midwest but because she was persecuted she moved to California where she was loved and accepted. She was thoroughly confused that I could be both Catholic and yet still loving and affirming her. Several times she asked me if I was a “real” Catholic. To her, I could not be a “real” Catholic because they would never go to a bar, they would never talk to a lesbian, they would never have a discussion but would instead force a rhetoric down her throat.

Our time together was like a complicated dance in which I allowed her to lead. I listened to the meanings behind her words so I could understand her beliefs, her judgments, her questions. I then allowed her to lead the conversation and I followed her answering the questions she asked using her own language, her own words so that their meanings would be understood.

By the end of the conversation, my hope was that she saw I was not giving an opinion or judgment that a woman cannot be a man and vice versa but that she was a created by God as a woman and that it is very good and God has a plan for her life and her being a woman is intimately tied to that truth.

My only intention was to get her to see the beauty of being woman and that her call to love and be loved is stamped into her body. I tried to love her, right where she was and only talked about the what she desired to talk about but gave her Jesus over and over.

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Why did I let her lead? Because this is where she was “open”. This is where the Holy Spirit had plowed her open like a field in preparation to receive the divine seed of truth. To cast seeds elsewhere would be in vain. She showed me where she was ready to receive and I prayed to the Holy Spirit to guide me so that He could enter into her heart and begin to grow where He had made her ready. It was no coincidence that we met and that this conversation took place in the most unlikely of places. This was divine providence. She was led to me and I to her so that Jesus could woo her to himself.

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We are like the footman in the movie Cinderella. Jesus Christ goes to the ends of the earth to find us, he turns no person away. We are to help invite people to try on the glass slipper which is a sign of our dignity and our inheritance and deliverance from the evils of the world. The difference is that the slipper fits everyone. It conforms to the person that is trying it on. We bring the invitation and when they see it fits them despite their sins, they too will see they are called to be crowned bride to the prince.

So are you ready? Are you ready to find out the questions on the hearts of so many souls wandering in the desert? We are all longing for something and though Jesus is the answer, sometimes we must begin with the question. Mercy must be encountered not preached. If you want to teach Jesus Christ as the answer, then begin by becoming Jesus Christ to those people God places in your life. Once you know the question, it will be your own growth and transformation in Christ that will enable you to share the answer. Go out and invite people to the marriage feast of the lamb!

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We must answer the question ourselves first. We must say yes to the marriage proposal before we can invite others to do the same. We must become transformed ourselves. We must receive Jesus; conceive His love deep in our own hearts, minds and souls. We must grieve the places we have failed and in this place where we are broken, we must birth Him forth into the world. It is from our places of brokeness that He will most perfectly triumph over evil and with prayer He will sustain us. When the enemy comes to tell you that you cannot do this, remember, “You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.” Philippians 4:13

The Wedding March

We were made for union and communion. We were made by love to love.

A few years ago now I was watching Good Morning America and they featured a newly married couple’s Wedding March Youtube video. As I watched the video I began to cry. My first impression was that I was the bride and Jesus was the Bridegroom and the wedding March would be the day that I passed from this life to the next and it would look just like this couples Wedding March. I sent the video to a friend of mine asking if my first impressions were sacrilegious? After all, I was not saying we should profane a Church or be irreverent to the eucharist in the tabernacle or that we should use pop music in a Wedding Ceremony, rather I was merely looking deeper into the intrinsic beauty of what a Wedding is through the lens of Theology of The Body.

He affirmed me in my initial observation and reminded me of 2 Samuel where David danced naked before the tabernacle because He was overcome with joy, and love of God. I heard later he used it that same month in teaching Theology of The Body to a group of students at the center in which he works. Media really can help us teach and even enter into the mysteries of God especially when it is music or art because it penetrates our hearts and this is what Christ says He desires to do, to give us hearts of flesh to replace the hearts of stone that have become hardened by sin.

As I listened and watched the video (as I encourage you to do now before reading this blog as it will make more sense to you) I imagined my Wedding March with me as the Bride and Jesus Christ as my Bridegroom. I would be surrounded by the Saints and they would be filled with joy and exuberance, they would be like David in 2 Samuel, dancing and singing at my celebration of union and communion with my Bridegroom.

The words to the song became the words of the lover of my soul, He sang to me all that He has desired since my creation.

It’s you and me
Moving at the speed of light into eternity
Tonight is the night
To join me in the middle of ecstasy

Feel the melody and the rhythm of the music
Around you, around you

I’ma take you there, I’ma take you there
So don’t be scared, I’m right here, ready?
We can go anywhere, go anywhere
But first, it’s your chance, take my hand, come with me

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This first part reminds me of Pope Benedict the XVI’s encyclical on Love in which he gives us a thorough understanding of ecstasy. In fact, the Holy Father reminds us that when rightly understood, this is not about sex but is about the love of the trinity and it tries to express a depth that is unfathomable to us, no words in the human language can express it, but ecstasy is close. In fact, St. Theresa of Avila often went into “ecstasy” when she was having visions. There is a famous sculpture that tries to depict what it looked like, but what we are told is that is is like a piercing of our hearts with a fiery arrow that sinks and penetrates into the deepest recesses of our souls. Christ the Bridegroom desires to penetrate the hardness of our hearts and set it on fire like the burning bush on Mt. Sinai, like the Seraphim Angels that are the closest to God.
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There are some saints that say that we were sung into existence, St. Francis says when we sing we pray twice. There are many that have near death experiences that said they heard music that was so beautiful they could not equate it to anything here except a choir of angels. St. Juan Diego heard singing on the Tepeyac hill so it is safe to say, that the we will feel the melody and the rhythm of the music around us.
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The Bridegroom tells us “Be Not Afraid, I go before you always, come follow me and I will bring you home”. This was also the motto of Pope John Paul II, “Be Not Afraid”. The taking of His hand is the submission of our will and the body speaking the language of our soul which is yes, I agree, I acquiesce, I submit, I give my fiat, my hand in marriage to be united to you in all things.

Feels like were on another level
Feels like our love’s intertwined
We can be two rebels
Breaking the rules, me and you, you and I

All you gotta do is watch me
Look what I can do with my feet
Baby, feel the beat inside

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When we consecrate ourselves and become receptive as Mary showed us in her own yes to the wedding proposal, we are espoused to the Holy Spirit, intertwined and it feels like we are on another level. We are in the world but not of the world and suddenly our hearts feel like rebels against the ugliness of the world and often we are not accepted but persecuted as if we truly were rebels. We break the rules of political correctness and society’s rules of what is and is not successful and all we have to do is watch Him, keep our eyes fixed on Him. What can He do with His feet? He can walk on water! Can we trust Him enough to step out of our boat?

I’m driving, you could take the front seat
Just need you to trust me, oh oh oh
It’s like now

It’s a long way down, we so high off the ground
Sending for an angel to bring me your heart
Girl, where did you come from? Got me so undone
Gaze in your eyes got me saying

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Jesus I trust In You. For those of you that read my blog regularly you know how I had an epiphany this year when I realized that those words mean relinquishing control, handing over the reigns, being willing to renounce the Idolatry of control and allow God to drive. But He does not ask us to take a back seat, in fact we are next to Him. We still get to navigate the direction of our lives, we are just allowing Him figure out How and if we get there and that is how we truly live the words, Jesus I trust in You.

He sends each of us an angel, our Guardian Angel’s sole purpose (no punn intended) is to bring us Christ’s heart and to bring our heart to Christ. He also give us St. Michael to fight against the powers and principalities of this world that continually try to infest and oppress us so that we become over burdened with lifes hardships and FORGET that we are destined for the Wedding March to the Wedding feast the Wedding Banquet of the Lamb and we are His honorable guest. No, we are His bride.

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The eyes are the window to the soul and when we truly see the person in front of us, not look at them, but we see them, we enter into what I have been calling “intercourse of the heart”. I wrote an entire piece on what that is in case you do not know. I believe we are all called to see one another in this way. Babies innately know how to gaze into our eyes in this way, seeking us out, going deep down into our hearts as they gaze lovingly upon their mothers. Any breastfeeding mother and even those holding a bottle has seen this gaze and it is more than looking.

What a beautiful lady, no ifs, ands or maybes
I’m releasing my heart and it’s feeling amazing
There’s no one else that matters, you love me
And I won’t let you fall girl, let you fall girl

I won’t let you fall, let you fall, let you fall
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah

Many of us do not feel beautiful or even beautiful but that is because we set our standards based on what society and culture say is desirable. In some cultures being obese is beautiful but in America it is equated to a sin. Each and everyone of us are beautiful in the creator eyes. When we go to Him for our identity and worth we no longer need to prove ourselves academically, or concern ourselves with how big our breasts are how large our muscles are, how small our waist is, how white our teeth are, we are unique and unrepeatable persons that He chose to create out of nothing and our soul is immortal and will exist for all eternity.
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He released His heart to all of us on the cross. Christ died for us, releasing us from the effects of original sin, the trinitarian love of God expressed to us through the incarnation of Christ, gives us a snapshot into how God loves and how we are called to love one another and to love Him. We are called to give ourselves as a free, total, faithful and fruitful gift. Even though God has created innumerable souls, each one of us matters to Him, each of us are written on His heart and He desires a relationship with us. I have 8 children, do I love any one of them any less? Would I give my life for any one of them to prevent their deaths or their suffering? How much more does God love us when we, as flawed as we are, can love our own children imperfectly? The cross and Christ’s gift of self to the Father, has given us the bridge to unite ourselves once again to God and to come to the Wedding Feast.

It’s like I waited my whole life for this one night
It’s gon’ be me, you and the dance floor
‘Cause we only got one night
Double your pleasure, double your fun

And dance forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever
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We were made for union and communion.  We were made by love to love.

We were made for union and communion. We were made by love to love.

God waits our whole lives, for some He must wait longer than others. He waits to be re-united to us at the altar. Our whole lives are about the “one night” the night of The Wedding March. We will appear before our Bridegroom, surrounded by the saints that are dancing, doing handstands and cartwheels because our joy is their joy and their joy is our joy. As we dance down the red carpet towards the lover of our soul, He will do a summersault to us expressing is jubilation and His unless we are like a child we cannot enter the Kingdom of God so of course God would do summersaults for us. As He takes our hand and threads His arm through our own, we will approach the Father together (I chose to believe the woman in the video is Mary, welcoming me to the Father’s house) and there, we will dance forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever-ever-ever
Forever

Zombie Apocalypse; We are the walking wounded

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Have you noticed there are a lot of zombie movies and television shows lately? It is as if Hollywood can see what so many of us are refusing to see. We are the walking wounded. We may not live in the biblical times of leprosy but we certainly live in a time of spiritual leprosy. We live in a fallen world and with fallen people. The new normal is not man and wife with three kids a dog, a house and a white picket fence. In fact, I am not even sure what the new normal is, but it is definitely not the “traditional” family. The movies we watch that are depicting human beings as zombies, are closer to the truth than most tv sitcoms.
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We are all wounded in some way. Some of us are living with the effects of sexual abuse or physical abuse; some of us were abandoned by our parents. Still others were emotionally abused or psychologically traumatized by alcoholic or drug addicted parents or even others were ritualistically abused. Whatever the your childhood, chances are you either experienced abuse or neglect yourself or someone very close to you did. The effects of abuse wounds us and it is in through these wounds that we begin to form our understandings and beliefs about who we are, who God is and whether or not we believe in anyone or anything.

The wounds that are inflicted upon us are openings to evil or negativity. Call it what you will, it is through wounds that we are opened up and it is as these moments we can become bound up as prisoner to our pain, our fears and the vows that we make to ourselves.
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If you or someone you know feels they are nailed to their cross instead of carrying it, then this book may be an answer to prayer. I have endured many of the abuses listed above. I have done what most do, I have gone on to wound others in the very way in which I am wounded. It is an irony that is not lost on me. However, it is helpful to recognize this because it helps us to discover the root wounds buried and hidden deep with us. When we see how we wound others, or we meet people that create a distress in us, usually it is a neon sign, pointing us to an area that we need healing in.
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I am hoping that those of you that are seeking healing are inspired by my story but are also given the courage to be vulnerable in ways you have dared not to for so very long.
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It is in being vulnerable that we are able to open ourselves to the Bridegroom. Jesus is the Bridegroom and knows all of the secrets of our story. He desires to make us whole and it is only through His grace that we can be transformed. I am here to say it is not only possible, but what you might believe to be your greatest flaw or ugliest secret may just be the birthplace of greatness.
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Each of us were created by God and chosen out of all the “potential” people God could have created to come into existence. God knew what He was getting when He created me, He knew how I would fall, how I would fail Him and yet He did it anyway. I am no surprise to God. He chose me! When we created me, He chose to make me female because God has a plan for my life and being a woman is part of His plan. People do bad things. Our free will allows for that. It’s called God’s permissive will. He does not actively will it, but He promised after the flood that He would not interfere directly against our will. He sealed it with a promise for all to see with a rainbow.

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God gives each of us gifts and charisms to enable us to more perfectly carry out our calling yet each of us are given a choice as to whether or not we chose to live out our calling. When we are abused, we begin to lose our ability to function as a “whole” person because our very personhood is wounded. These wounds go very deep and actually separate us from being able to see truth, to love and to be loved and may even destroy our lives in the process. Joy becomes an abstract concept and not a personal experience for the person with wounds.

The wounds created in us many times lead to sin. Many people wound in the very ways in which they were wounded as a means to protect themselves. Many people who abuse were abused themselves.
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Here is the Good News! Christ came to restore us! He makes all things new! When our wounds are redeemed and washed clean in the blood of Christ we are made new. The very places you feel the most broken become your most beautiful gifts. He will shine out of your wounds in ways that will not only transform you, but it will transform the people around you. His light shines through our wounds revealing hope and healing on the other side.

Come and put your fingers into my wounds so that you too will believe. Open your hearts and minds to not only believe but to receive your own healing because today is the day of freedom!
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I want to issue a warning for those of you that are easily disturbed by stories that include abuse. While I am not descriptive in every detail, I do share my story of abuse. Please feel free to skip over areas that may be to troubling to you to read. Make note of anything that you read that stirs up fear or anxiety in a journal so you can go back to it later in prayer. Often times, our reactions that are distressing are actually distress symptoms of something within our own hearts that God desires to heal in us. It is the distress symptom that acts as the treasure map so that we can find the hidden areas within us that once discovered and healed, will be our greatest treasure and pearl of great worth.

This book is about my journey of healing from the wounds of my childhood. It is because I did not want to pass on my wounds to my own children, and because I no longer desire to live out of my wounds, that I embarked on a journey of self-discovery. The reason I have decided to write this book is because of the freedom I have found on that journey. I have received more healing in the last year by this method than all of the 30 years of counseling combined.

I was three the year I was sexually abused for the first time. But I have been healed and created anew!

I was three the year I was sexually abused for the first time. But I have been healed and created anew!


I cannot contain it for myself, I must share it because I see so many people in my travels that are broken, hurting, alone, lost and suffering under the weight of their own weaknesses and I desire to be Simon to them. In fact, once we gain freedom from our wounds, they become transformed and begin to radiate Christ to all those around us. Let me share my own journey with you and say a simple prayer of agreement now, “Come Holy Spirit, Come” so that perhaps you too will be made new.
If one person finds freedom and joy because of my story, then I will know I did the right thing in sharing my story.

How to Overturn Roe Vs. Wade

“I survived Roe Vs. Wade but Roe Vs. Wade will NOT survive me!” were the words proclaimed by a young 12 year old girl named Zoe at the Youth Rally held in the Hyatt Regency this year at this years March For Life gathering in Washington DC.

While at the March For Life in Washington DC this year I encountered many, many amazing pro-life speakers and apostolates. However there was one person in particular that moved me to tears and made my heart rise into my throat as she spoke. “I survived Roe Vs. Wade but Roe Vs. Wade will NOT survive me!” were the words proclaimed by a young 12-year-old girl named Zoe.
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As I listened to her passionate cry for an end to abortion and listened to the cheers of the huge crowd united in purpose and passion echoing her, I asked myself this question. What can we do to ensure that Zoe’s children do not have to grow up in a country that does not protect unborn children? This is the answer I came up with.
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We must Unite, Encourage and Unify In Our Purpose. The opposite of that is to Divide, Discourage and Distract, which is what the enemy does to pro-life ministries and apostolates.

We Must Unite

The enemy divides us using Selfishness. It causes persons to say “do it my way or no way” because my way is best. Lack of Fellowship says you go your way and I’ll go my way because I will not share any of my resources. This is why we still have not found a cure for breast cancer. The labs have patented their research; they do not share their work or their findings or their resources to accomplish their common goal. They are competitors and not co-workers. However, I would propose that it is in sharing that we would cover more ground and get faster results. Together we can be much more powerful than working alone.
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Let us be Co-workers not competitors. When we disassociate ourselves because someone has hurt our feelings or slighted us, we allow ourselves to separate from the pack. It’s like a lion that separates a gazelle from the pack. It is easier to attack when it is on it’s own. We are divided and eventually we fall from disappointments, discouragements, distractions and division. We are all flawed, so it is not easy to work together but if we want to overturn Roe Vs Wade, we must find a way.

Blessed Mother Theresa said that when Christ draws us close to Himself, the thorns on His crown will pierce our forehead as He leans in to kiss our cheek. There is suffering in this life and I am guessing that in Pro-life ministry there is a lot of suffering. Why? There are two reasons. One, many people in the pro-life movement are part of the walking wounded. They know the pain and ache of abortion and that’s why they want to help bring an end to it. Secondly, because Christ suffers in seeing the murder of the innocent unborn and the lack of reverence for life by those that participate in it. If you give your life to be with Him in this battle, your going to suffer with Him. So what are we to do? Bear one another’s shortcomings patiently, love one another and He loves us and finally we should embrace the suffering that comes from this work, knowing that we are perfected in suffering.

We Must Encourage

It is in the encouraging of one another’s success and helping others that we become encouraged. It is in giving that we receive. Each ministry and apostolate plays a part, no matter how different, and that part is crucial in this battle. We are many parts but we are all one body. My leg cannot hear and toes cannot see but I need my legs and I need my toes. There are so many ministries involved in this pro-life movement and all of them are necessary and none are more important or better or worse than another.

Well, actually they are all the “best” in their area. Those fighting in the political arena are much better at it than a sidewalk counselor and a ministry training side walk counselor is better at that than a ministry that works with politicians to create pro-life legislature, both are important and necessary.
Wherever God has called you to fight this fight, be encouraged because it is the MOST IMPORTANT PLACE YOU CAN BE. We need you all right where you are at, but we need to unite so we can encourage one another and help one another in our fight.
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We Must Unify In Purpose

Finally, we need to unify in purpose. What is the goal? It should be to save souls. Our goal is to bring Christ to others in and through our own life. Each and every person is a unique and unrepeatable person, created by God, with an immortal soul. Isn’t our goal to save souls? When we realize the goal is to save souls we remember to be charitable in every thought action and deed.

When we remember the goal is to save souls, we remember that Shawn Carney of 40 days for life sat in his kitchen with David Bereit and said “what can we do to bring down the number of abortions?” Through their exploration of that question they began an apostolate that is one of the most successful initiatives I have ever seen cross denominational lines as well as borders to countries, in closing down abortion clinics. Their focus on the goal of saving souls, allowed their hearts to love Abby Johnson right out of being a director of Planned Parenthood. Now, the fruit of their efforts has brought Abby into the pro-life movement and she is now focusing on the goal. She too is now working to bring more souls out of the abortion industry.

Does it matter if there are abortion clinics on every corner in America if no works in them and no one ever goes in? We must Unite, encourage and unify in our purpose and then we will become the Culture of Life, Love and Truth that accurately reflects the face of God.

Thank you Zoe, you reminded me that God raises up people every day to fight for Him and I am confident that Roe Vs. Wade will NOT survive your generation just so long as we all work together toward our common goal.

How about a Pro-life conference on the 40th Anniversary of Roe Vs Wade to showcase where we have been and what we have done so we can educate and train those that attend so we do not have 40 more years. I would love to see a pro-life conference out of Chicago (make it central) that features pro-life speakers helping others to unite in purpose and resources.

We have now created so many great ministries we need them all to come together and network. Have them donate the speakers fee’s so that everyone can come. Have it be a weekend conference so there are speakers Friday Night through Sunday. Some people can come just for Saturday or all of it, they can pick which parts are suited to their calling in this war.

The cost of tickets could cover the event. There could be a teen rally going on simultaneously. There can be several workshops to choose from How to start a blog, how to use media, how to raise money, how to get volunteers, how to do sidewalk counseling, how to support your legislatures, how to start a pro life high school group, how to write a book, how to make a movie, how to start a support group for healing etc.

We could have keynotes as well as workshops in different areas. Here are some examples of the kind of speakers it should have.

Father Pavone speaking on faith and politics
Avede King; Abortion as Genocide to African Americans and Hispanic Communities
Abby Johnson: How to Convert the Workers of Abortion Clinics
Shawn Carney/David Bereit: Coordinating 40 days for life in your area
Mnsgr Reilly, Helpers; Side Walk Counseling how love and prayer converted Bernard Nathanson
Pam Stenzel: Conceived by Rape sharing our personal stories to convert hearts
Rebecca Kiessling: Conceived by Rape
Jason Jones: Being Present in Hollywood
Spirit Juice Studios: How to Make Films that are pro-life
John Morales: Father Hearts
Fr Tadeusz Pacholczyk: Fetal Stem Cell Research and Medical Ethics
Bobby Schindler: Euthanasia
eduardo verastegui: Being a Pro-life actor
Dr. Janet Smith: Contraception Why Not?
Damon Owens: Theology of The Body understanding the meaning of fruitful love
Lila Rose: Uncovering Scandal through Investigating journalism using New Media
Vicky Thorn: Project Rachel offering healing after abortion
Jeannie Hanneman: Elizabeth Ministries Establishing a pro-life presence in Churches (rose program)
Christina King: Our Lady of Guadalupe as an Icon for Life, Love and New Evangelization
Will Goodman: Sidewalk Counseling
Fr. Chris Crotty: Fathers of Mercy Priest Spiritual Warfare abortion as a demonic sacrament
Fr. Grob: Spiritual Warfare
Zac King: Ex-Satanist and knowledgable about abortion as sacrifice